every deck came with a little secret written in the box, you can share your secret here if desired? or you can keep it to yourself!
love, droqen

XIV. TEMPERANCE
The negative space in the middle of the card once contained a strange abstract many-armed red creature.

(I don't remember why.)


It's much quieter now without it.

a secret was publicly posted
"a photo of droqen's tarot deck: secrets edition: two of wands and the packaging it came in, featuring an azure halftone vegetal card back and a two of wands card with a figure holding an orb on a promontory between two saplings. the inset of the shipping box says "love, droqen" and a short prose card reads: "two of wands - the wands across the entire deck have the most variation of all the suits: they are branches, lightning bolts, torches, harpoons, staves. i think this is true to their nature. the wands represent passion, creativity, pure possibility. of course they are always changing.""

[what am i forgetting to look for?]

I opened my deck two nights ago, and just found the will to share my secret. I went through the tarot lookup tool for each one on the store, and a few of them resonated. I think the four of coins just seemed like the most useful one for me:

ask...
what am i forgetting to look for?

you're clinging onto all that you think you have.

I've tried a few readings and haven't drawn it yet. Enough time has passed since I ordered the deck that I'm dealing with a different headspace, and I don't know if I'm ready to answer this one at the moment. I guess a question that feels useful should always take time to answer properly.


The secret:

Four of Coins

Sometimes I cling to respectability, reputation, sitting in the spotlight like our character here, burdened by mere acceptance. Superego.

I desperately want to say the right thing, be the right person, be good.

This card makes me notice that.
I should turn off the lights instead + do whatever the hell I want!

I don't remember if this is what I expected. Anyway, it's probably more relevant than I thought it would be.

<3