i would like two more cards now that i know what i'm asking.
i think these rambling thoughts sound really really crazy. i'm not filtering anything and i'm using terms like 'complete graph' without defining them at all.
i suppose that i could write a version of this that would make sense, but i think i would personally get less out of the exercise that way, so i'm not gonna do it.

1. the complete graph is a nihilist view, which brought me comfort in a time of recovery after turmoil.
(i'm open to other perspectives, now.)
2. the king of coins is reliable, manages resources well. i'm inspired by this person's ability to handle so much, so many people.
3. the queen of coins is warm and comfortable, has plenty. it's another person - i'm being called upon to be inspired by this person, too.
(ok, be inspired by people. look and listen to people.)

maybe that's enough. i can leave it there for now.

POSITION 1 [PAST] = FOUR OF SWORDS
POSITION 2 [PRESENT] = KING OF COINS
POSITION 3 [FUTURE] = QUEEN OF COINS
wow thanks deck, doubling down on the court of coins here.
preparing for the future... there's the bunny...
i think the deck is chastising me for not having a clear question, these characters coming out, they're telling me something
i was thinking about the signals nature sends today. wind blows. it doesn't mean anything, but we can still listen to the noise and interpret its meaning.

the meaning is our meaning.

POSITION 1 [PAST] = FOUR OF SWORDS
POSITION 2 [PRESENT] = KING OF COINS
i just realized i forgot to address the TLOZ:4SA connection (if any). that's a multiplayer game... i only ever played it single-player, i think. not being able to play it togeter with anyone was the reason i never played it, more or less.
so, the king of coins. i wrote: "the king provides what is needed, and hears out your most ambitious requests." the king of coins has a grounded perspective.
maybe more relevant is the towers. coins... i'm reminded of the references bunnies makes to "coins and walls".

i can't sum this one up. court cards make no sense to me.
there's a person, a figure, a state of mind, who can handle connections, variance in value.

POSITION 1 [PAST] = FOUR OF SWORDS
writing this name down made me think of The Legend of Zelda: Four Swords Adventures
... is there any connection there? idk.
the card itself is pastels (yellow, blue) with a single (lonely) figure dripping blood.
the meaning of the card is something like 'the aftermath of a battle'.
i wanted to express a leaving-behind of the complete graph...
it made me think, maybe the complete graph was a response to something, i was recovering, the complete graph felt relaxing, safe -- i could recover.
my lookup page says to ask... // what was the nature of the conflict? how do i know it's really done?
i thought also the complete graph could represent a kind of void of meaning. if nothing matters, everything matters. if everything matters, nothing matters.
this has been a thought of mine for a long time -- it started back when i was talking about 'high authority' games.

so, i'll try to sum this up as

[PAST] Flat connection of all elements creates a comfortable meaninglessness.

i intended to do a simple 3-card reading [past] [present] [future], each position representing a moment in the development of the idea, but before nailing it down i found i'd already shuffle and dealt the cards and looked at the first one, whose intepretation pinned the meaning of [past] to some degree... so i'll just keep it loose and go with what makes sense. i.e. [past] doesn't necessarily represent any specific past, it's open to either a) the pre-existing idea being rewritten or b) the reason the pre-existing idea came to be or neither/both/anything.

sometimes a thought comes to me, and it slips away before i can properly catch it... i used to use this energy to write little blog posts, and sometimes that resulted in interesting posts, but they also had a rambling quality, and lately i've been finding i don't like that process, it seems to reduce -- anyway that's not about that

instead, here i'll try to use tarot to make sense of my thoughts.

1. i have the distinct thought in mind
2. my goal is to capture the thought
3. my method of capturing is intended to embrace nonsense, to some degree

i will perhaps also bsky this process

Hey Droqen,

I think that is a good idea, it is shame the spam bots have invaded

Gabe

I am tired of talking/thinking/wondering about "killing gameplay"! The more I try to spin around the idea through text and words, the more confused I get... This format has exhausted its usefulness for me! So, I need to make something and just see what happens.

So I'm making a piece of software!
My Idea is that it will involve sticking stickers to things. Perhaps a diary tool of sorts. I've developed this idea a bit, and you might control a little cyclops.



And I'm going to keep a diary of its development, so that I have an ostensible audience which I must give coherent thoughts to (tricking myself into confronting the idea fragments floating around), and so people can look at it and say things if they want, and maybe say "hey I should make something too".

So, I've actually already started. I think like 2 3 days ago. I'm using Adam Le Doux (of Bitsy fame)'s Cartlet 'found software' format. (Read about it here, make your own!)

The first two days, I basically spent a while just going through the Cartlet tutorial and reading the source code for Adam's WIZARD GARDEN to figure out how this thing works. I formatted the code properly since it had been condensed into one very long line, and then threw some console.log() statements in there to see what some of the numbers were doing. It was pretty cool (I've attached the formatted source code to this post, for your reading pleasure). By the end of day 1, I had drawn a little guy and made them able to move around the screen in a tile based fashion.



I haven't really coded in a few years, but I did learn Java once upon a time. JavaScript is, unsurprisingly, very similar. So after getting comfortable with all that, I added some animations to my little sprite.



At this point I had my sticker idea already, but I didn't know much beyond that. How would you place them? What are the essential qualities of stickers, and their placement? Do I actually like the way I made the little guy move? Will you be exploring somewhere or just placing things? Should you have limited stickers? Is that gameplay?! Woe!

I'm writing this, as I have stated, 3 days after starting, and have now answered some of these questions for myself, I think... But that's probably a good place to end this first entry.

So that's post #1, thank you for reading! I don't do much writing besides for university, so hopefully I'll get better at it. Please feel free to post your thoughts or whatever here, let me know if you're wondering something or have suggestions.
- Page

I wrote a little short story (rough) (pieces of it,perhaps), and I drew a card to ask, who should I show it to first? DEATH is S ofc. but I figured S won't be able to receive it until I edit it... i'm thinking of keeping it to myself for editing purposes, first. What's my desire/fear reading?

desire - da queen of coins
i think im hoping S will be able to help me bring my resources to bear,, i'm not hoping for wands (inspiration) or cups (emotional support/resonance/clarity) though I do think i'll get that. no swords either - this is an almost unconscious process, this writing, intelligence won't help. coins... what is that? time? the queen of time.

fear - ACE OF COINS! What da hack
this is meant to oppose the desire, 'tis what gets in the way
i don't want to start some kind of resource-consuming process...
sigh, it tru, this shouldn't feel like the start of a whole damn COIN PROCESS...

reaction - TWO OF COINS
frick
so many coins, shut up coins
so my inclination is to Do It All
...

RESPONSE? - the hierophant
hm. old fashioned ways, eh
I feel like im going to do some Normal Editing

three of cups / two of cups
ten of wands -> eight of wands

WEIRD